moved off to wordpress cos i dunno why but livejournal can't upload my photos properly! ):
i feel so fickle but there you go!

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 God,
help me not be cynical.
Teach me how to trust.
and love and believe.

Today on the bus,
i saw a little kid give up his seat to an old lady.
I feel so heartened!
<3


one cool kid among the many humans on that bus.

 This coming week will be crazy.
my schedule is already so packed i dont even think i have time to breathe.
D:
its like,
every single day, morning afternoon, night.
i have something going on.
respectively (morning)/(afternoon)/(night),
NOT mentioning the eating, sleeping and many admin things i have to do...

Monday- school/tests/mug for tues test + discipleship
Tues- school/tests/tuition
Wed- medical checkup/ school+project mtg/accounts meeting 
Thurs- school/frisbee match/meeting
Friday- school/school/shopping.

YES. shopping on friday.
160 bucks to spend on accessories.
WOOHOOO.
please let this season's stocks be good!
its the ONLY thing im looking forward to this week.

 Just a month and a few blog posts back, 
i told God,
let my 2010 be an exciting roller coaster ride!

well, its now the month of febuary, 
and really, its been one heck of a unexpected, exciting ride.
It's been such a short short time since 2010 started,
and so many many things are beginning to happen.
While i know 2010 is a year of change, 
i didn't expect so much!
many huge changes are happening for me, and its freakish, mind blowing, upsetting and amazing all at the same time.
too much for my brain to take!

im turning 21.
im moving, far far away.
im starting my preceptorship.
and last but not least,
i got my scholarship.
in an amazing 3 days.
BEAT THAT.

i mean, its CRAZY.
its so crazy it can only be God.

Was talking to marvin, and he says i'm gonna forget these in a couple of months.
and since i cannot stand writing in a journal, i will blog!

When God opens a door and points the way, He really goes all out to make it obvious, you cant miss it unless you're blind.
I was so apprehensive about the whole SGH thingy at first,
and i keep telling everyone, 
even if they offer it i might not take it.
but after seeing myself go through the whole process,
i cant deny it's God.
yea it may not be the best hospital or the BEST way, 
but i believe He has something great in store, cos His way is the best way for me.

we just do the logical and as and when, God'll step in to do the super!

THEN,
i was talking to xav, and he's been telling me he doesn't know what to do with his life after NS,
and really, i shared the same feelings,
at least up till now where i have no choice but to go SGH since i'd be bonded. heh.
and i started realising we don't need to worry about what to do or where to go,
cos im sure God has a plan for all of us.
which is true! seeing so many stories that proves that right,
including Jona's.
(im not gna blog about Jona's story, too lazy)
and as i said,
when He points the way,
its freaking obvious.

 I always said,
21st birthday must try new things!
and indeed, this 21st i will be trying out many, many new things.
nothing i expected though.

i thought new things would be like. skydiving. or eating some weird food. or going overseas! 
i never thought my new thing would be moving out of timah, practically where i grew up,
and into a totally different place.

another new thing would be to start attachment.
in fact, right on the day of my 21st.
sounds super sucky now, but i really hope it'll all turn out for the best. D:

yes i've been sulking for the past week,
so pardon this quite depressing post.
then again, its my blog and if you dont like it, go read something else.
like the newspaper.

okay on other less depressing things!
i said LESS, but its still quite sad. haha!

i still haven't decide whether to have a party or not.
):
its my birthday, and i dont see why i should pump in so much time, effort and money so MY FRIENDS can have fun.
but crystal says if i dont throw a party i wont get presents.
HAHA.
damn weird, but so very true.

 I DON'T LIKE ABALONE.
i like fake abalone. pacific clams sea asparagus and all the other subtypes of abalone,
just not abalone itself.
 i dont mind eating it, i just dont like it.

abalone is so pompous!
it doesn't taste like anything at all,
just salted rubber.
and yet, people spend so much money on it.
i mean, why pay 50bucks for a piece of preserved rubber!
just because its expensive doesn't mean its good.

-.-
okay its just a random rant on abalone.
Halfway through thinking about this post,
i realised it may sound like im flaming someone,
but really.
its just about abalone.

 i dont know when it happened,
or how it happened.

one fine day i realised i go weak in the knees when i see blood.
i have an irrational fear of injections and blood.
and its getting more stupid.
how so u ask?

today my pimple popped. (eeeww)
and as almost all girls know, u gotta get that whitehead out if not your pimple will just grow back again.
so there i was in front of the mirror trying to get the whitehead out.
unfortunately, the more i squeezed,
the more blood came out.
and it wasn't gushing/pouring out.
it wasn't alot of blood.
just the amount u get when u get a cut.
but i couldn't take it.
i felt weak looking at that amount.
):
which means the stupid pimple might be back to haunt me tmr!

surprisingly, the monthly ~100ml (according to textbooks but it really feels more like 500ml) of blood doesn't make me faint.
weird huh.

Recently, it's been a hell of a roller coaster ride.
not in a bad way.
:D
i had my really really high ups.
and my downs.
im just glad my ups are so much more than my downs.
largely thanks to the WCP outing and a certain overnight stay,
at least for this week.

Im into the first month of 2010, and cny is coming.
time really really flies.
i think it spent the past 4 weeks quite well!
Shot my first video, (super damn alot of NGs)
cultured my breath's microorganism (HA!)
played with marvin's camera like crazy. (love the lights)
had a hell of an awesome outing
had talks with so many people.
and, so much mmooorreee.

God, let the rest of my 2010 be awesome!
:D

like i said,
a hell of a roller coaster ride.
give me the thrills!

In a hell lot of pain!
Stupid molar and stupid nerves.
If there aren't nerves in my teeth i wouldnt feel like dying half of the time.
For the first 3/4 part of yesterday, i couldnt eat nor talk.
i could only mmmm and hmmmm.
i spent most of the day sleeping and popping panadol.
oh, and waiting at the dentist's lounge.
Im just happy i wasnt the only sad person there.

Finally got home at about 6pm with alot of local anesthetic in my gums,
so still, couldnt talk nor eat.
Slept till 8pm,
(okay at this point my new year's eve got better!)
and Marvin came over with movies!

So Marvin, me and Simba pretty much movie marathon-ed all the way to the new year,
joined also by Crystal and then Charmaine.
We've conquered Zombie Land, Spirited Away, Coraline and 17 Again!
oh, and a little of Marley and Me.

but really, having a toothache sucks.
i took 5 minutes to eat ONE nacho chip.
and vegetables? which i love?
i had to eat strand by strand.
i dont think i've ever eaten so slow before.

but anyways,
happy 2010!
i think for the first few weeks i'll still be writing 2009 when it comes to dates.